Kava Bar

I’ve started to go to a Kava bar in downtown. By the way, Kava is a drink from the South Pacific islands that makes you feel relaxed and high. It’s very easy to get work done at the bar. I put my laptop on a hightable near the bar and drink kava as I edit. I don’t get distracted and waste time watching videos and reading news articles. I stay editing. Part of the reason is because people can see my screen and I want them to see that I’m working and not just goofing off. The Kava bar looks like a bar but people aren’t acting drunk. Everyone is chill and friendly. These didn’t exist when I was in my 20’s and 30’s. I met some people who have replaced alcohol with Kava.

A Gig

I got a gig filming an a hip clothing line photo shoot. I need to do this, even if it’s low paying because It’s good practice and I’ll meet people. Also, I need to get out of my fear of working as a freelance Videographer. My buddy, Oppie, recommended me. I want to do this as my primary job. Yet, I’m attracted to salary work because I just follow orders and collect a paycheck. Mentally, it’s easy. Yet I need to tackle the less easy but more rewarding way of making money. And I’ll meet new people!

Anger issues

I was at work. Bussing tables, cleaning, and taking out the trash. A customer sitting at a table nearby asked me.”Excuse me but I ordered my food a half hour ago and it still hasn’t arrived. Can you check to see if it’s coming out?” So I stopped what I was doing and went to the kitchen to see if the order for that table had gone out or was about to go out. They said they hadn’t seen that order. So I then went out to see if those customers had received their order while I was running around. Nope, they didn’t have any order recently arrived on their table. So I went to tell my boss, who was at the 2nd kitchen, about the situation. So he immediately told the cook to make that order “on the fly!” In the meantime I check on the table that was the cause of all this fluffery. I went up to them and told them that the food is on it’s way. They responded that they had already got the food that was “missing.” Ok, so to not have the cook make a burger that isn’t needed, I hurried back and told him to cancel it. He told the cook and got pretty mad himself. Honestly, after hearing him get mad I started feeling anger grow up inside me. I went about my job and felt like getting angry with someone. But I said no I shouldn’t do that, instead the anger should stop with me and not infect others. In the past I would get mad at someone innocent that wasn’t involved with the origin of the anger, and then feel bad at myself for getting mad at someone for a trivial issue.

I just found out that that supervisor was just fired for stealing money.

30 Year Reunion

I just bought a plane ticket to go to a thirty year high school reunion. I’m so excited. I’m going to see a lot of old friends I haven’t seen in a long time. I’m still close with a lot of high school friends. Facebook helps. These are people who occupy a special place in my heart, inspite of not seeing each other for a long time.

A Shrink

I’m going to see a psychiatrist for the first time in my life. I wanted to see one for many years, but I never had the courage to do so. I’m going to talk to this medical professional about my inability to have loving relationships and the inability to live in one place for any meaningful period of a time. 

Update: I saw the Doc. The conversation covered many topics including my childhood and he prescribed me money.

Drone Dudes

When I was visiting John in Pittsburg he thought of an idea for a video. It’s called Drone Dudes. It’s about two guys who fly drones. Since I’m always flying my drone it was a logical idea. We filmed a chilly day on a cliff above Pittsburgh. This is the result. 

Vlog:

I keep on with my vlog in Spanish. I don’t have anyone to speak Spanish with so I talk by myself. LoL!

Conclusion:

Stay busy so you don’t hear the voices. And be social, even if it’s difficult. Talk to strangers.