Conversation killer:

I was talking to a good friend of mine named Oppie. I told him I visited Miami and I told him that I saw my ex-wife. He asked what we talked about. I told him that I asked her if she wanted to have children. He then asked me if I was prepared to have a child. I said no but I wanted a child anyway and I continued, “many people aren’t prepared to have children and are having children everyday.” He kept harping on this topic and I got mad inside and told him he “needed to wrap up it up!” He got mad at me and I think got a little sad. I could’ve handled it better. At the end of the night we left on good terms but our relationship overall has soured.  

Workin’ for a livin’

I’m working about 3 days a week. I wish I was working more but sometimes our baseball team, the Tampa Bay Rays, play away, meaning they’re not playing a block from us, so that means we don’t get much business. Hopefully business will pick up because I need the money, especially if I start traveling in October. Football season starts next month, NFL and College, so along with baseball, I’ll be making decent coin. 

Drone news

My new drone is very good. It’s small. And the quality is good. Now I need to get rid of my older drone, the Mavic Pro 2. I think I can sell it for 700 dollars. It’s still in good condition. Oh and then I crashed my drone. I had it in automatic mode. It was following my every move ‘cause I commanded it to track me. I didn’t have my controller in my hand so it’d be a natural-looking shot. So It went into a tree and crashed to the street. But all good, it’s a sturdy drone, DJI Mini Pro 3.

Drugs of change

I haven’t drank coffee in 3 days. This is kinda like a miracle. I’ve been a frequent coffee drinker for many years, all my adult life. Multiple cups a day. Also, I stopped smoking weed and only drink alcohol occasionally, like once a week. This is all new for me. I wonder if my personality will change and if I’ll be a better worker or be more social. 

Romance

I’ll be honest. I’m not doing anything to get a girlfriend right now. I’m not secure with my situation. I don’t have a car. I don’t have a nice residence. My apartment is small and there’s no kitchen. It’s like a cheap motel room. I need to try, though. What do I have to lose, right? And I have everything to gain. I go out at night and see  many women that I want to talk to, then I think they will just reject me, so I will just reject them first by not talking to them. I remain alone but happy that I haven’t been rejected. Sheesh! Not a good way to see life. How do I break out?

Update: I talked to a girl in a Kava Bar.

The effect of Kava: numbing the lips and mouth, and pleasant feeling like being drunk or high, but not very strong.  

Health is wealth

A good thing about my current life is that I’m consistently going to the gym. I’ve always been good at that. I never understood people who say that can’t regularly go to the gym. I love it and it always makes me feel better, especially mentally. 

My second job

As usual I stay busy editing video. I just finished a commercial for my friend’s BBQ restaurant. I could’ve finished it quickly but I dragged it out by procrastinating and editing it very slowly.  I need to edit more and more frequently. But it’s so tedious that I get distracted and do something else, like watching YouTube or Tic Tok videos. 

In conclusion

 If you want something that you’ve never had before you have to do something you’ve never done before.