Brazil Over

On my way home from 2 months in Brazil. Don’t know how I feel about that. Kinda like a failure. Tried to find a girlfriend or a wife but no dice. I didn’t try as hard as I should have. Guess it comes down to fear of being rejected. I’m 48 and still have that same fear since childhood. I could have a girl by my side if I would have been brave to talk to girls. Pull the trigger. I’ll continue to try once back in the States. I need to have this activity occupy my days and life.

Texas

I flew from Sao Paulo to San Antonio, Texas. Here in Texas it’s cold but nice and I’ve been working outside a lot on my brother’s property. He’s got chickens now and we collect eggs everyday. There’s a forest on his property and we’ve been burning wood 8 days straight. We renovated and painted the barn, too. Everyday some work was done. Plenty to do. I bonded with my brother. As we are getting older we’ve been enjoying our company more and more. I feel the need to visit him multiple times a year. In the past we probably went two years between visits.

Tampa

After Pittsburg, I’m looking forward to moving to the Tampa Bay/St. Petersberg area. But I’m not looking forward to working a 9 to 5 job, but I’m optimistic that the next 1 or two years are going to be productive, full of filming and getting a girlfriend.

Pittsburg

Now back in the Pittsburg/ West Virginia area. It’s cold and snowy. I’m visiting John Gillette, an old friend from the Miami Beach days. From the get I’ve been planning the video shoots. We’re going to film two videos: A story about preventing the Vegans from taking over the world. It’s a comedy. I’m storyboarding it, which is drawing a picture of what each scene will look like. It’s more difficult at first but it pays off in the end.

Conclusion

Don’t live your life for others, live your own life. Nobody will live it for you.